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Kay so I'm bored and feel like blogging xD So this is what's happened in the last week to me.

So last weekend on Saturday the Denver zoo was hosting this thing they do once a year called Zoomaliy. Its like, where people dress up as fairy tale characters, and characters from movies, and nusery rhyme characters. Its obviously intended for kids of younger ages, and because I have a little sister and a younger brother [ 3 and 7] we went. xD Like all the little girls were dressed up as ...

I'm sorry...for everything that I caused. I realize now, that I'm no where near the person you need me to be. I wish I could still figure out how to change myself for you. So that you can be happy, so that you dont have to deal with the pain I bring.

Sometimes, I wish we never met so you never would have had to know what I am. If we could have just passed by...your life could have gone on so peacefully...and I could have kept my pains to myself. But of course our fates had to cross, ...

Why do I push people away so easily? Its like intentionally wound them so they don't have to worry and be around me anymore...its so very weird...However I do that and everything but I'm still there longing for just one person to help me out of this horrible deep dark place that I reside in. I'm not sure if I'm drowning or moving up or down...its as if I was suspended in darkness...in my sorrows....and at the same time, I realize its not necessarily darkness litterally as in the figurative darkness ...

Hiya. Ok, so I have this orchestra concert comming up on Tuesday this week and its going to be super duper long. However I'm also really excited because we're playing some exerpts from 'Phantom of the Opera'. Here's a song for that.

Music of the Night:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F_baJAVx8bc

Also going on...uhh...well I went to see the musical version of "Nine" tonight. I thought it was great, the music was amazing...made up for the lack of a solid ...

Bleh...today's one of my least favorite days of the year. The day I have to go preform at Solo and Ensemble. Its this thing where musicians go in and preform for a judge and get rated 1 - 5 [1 being the best, 5 being never come back ever] based off of things like intonation, overall performance, formal dress, etc. I hate it and I don't know why I do it every year cause its optional but still. I hate it, and I always screw up since I cant stand preforming for people. -w-" So wish me luck, I'll ...