Starry Skies and Fallen Angels

*yawn* I'm so sleepy... -w-" I had to get up at like...4:30 AM this morning East Coast Time and likee...it sucked -w-" cause I was retarded enough to try to stay up all last night so I wouldnt have to get up, but of course I fell asleep at like...1:30 AM and so...yeah....but I made it back. Saw Washington DC, Baltimore, uuhh....Gettysburg. [spelled that wrong I'm sure] Ya know...I didnt have internet D: it sucked. But I kinda checked in using my phone cause my phone is amazing like that ...

Can't believe another year passed so quickly. School is finally out for our district cause for some reason the people who made the calendar didnt plan for snow days [since we never get snow in colorado -w-"] so it was dragged out an extra 2 days but anyway! I"M DONE! I passed with a B average *shrugs* I'm not proud but it works. I mean for not trying and not finishing the homework thats pretty good. Finally grades were:

Advanced Orchestra - A [100%]
Biology - A [89.56%] ...

She was born happy.
Wings held high on her back full of pride.
She was an angel
Perfect and pleasing,
Kind and forgiving...

However, fate did not seem to love her.
day after day,
She suffered from pain...
from betrayal...

Soon Time passed and the small girl
Turned into an adolescent.
She fell in love...
She fell from grace....

Days after days continued forward,
the sorrows ...

Why do I push people away so easily? Its like intentionally wound them so they don't have to worry and be around me anymore...its so very weird...However I do that and everything but I'm still there longing for just one person to help me out of this horrible deep dark place that I reside in. I'm not sure if I'm drowning or moving up or down...its as if I was suspended in darkness...in my sorrows....and at the same time, I realize its not necessarily darkness litterally as in the figurative darkness ...

My internet is being a total jerk face to me and soo yeah...our router is gone here at my moms house so thats an issue, and now I have to be plugged into our actual thing for the internet -w-" The problem is we wont be getting a new router for 2 weeks T_T long time...[not really but I'll be on vacaction in likee...2 weeks so thats not really useful to me]. So thats kinda just a heads up for you all [not like you all care]. It's my excuse for not being active because I dont have internet at ...