Starry Skies and Fallen Angels

omg, im in soo much trouble, i have auditions tomorrow for this all county orchestra and i have no idea what im doing [i do but no self confidence doesnt help much in the long run does it?] so yeah, im feeling horrible right now. ;-; i really dont wanna go but im driving some of my friends who are auditioning too so i dont have a choice in the matter! AAHHH! WHY ME!? ;-;

well, this is more of a question, but have you ever felt heartbroken before anything hapened? i mean like, when you have to see a special someone every day and talk with them like nothings wrong but on the inside you just keep cracking more and more? isnt that the worst feeling knowing that there isnt anything you can do? i absolutely hate it. ;-;

i mean really so like i really liked this guy and i thought he liked me but then i was talking with some other people about it and they ...

YAY! its my birthday today! yay! finally! im soo happy!

YAY! i finally found a new anime to watch! its way girly but most of the one's i've been watching for awhile have been! its mermaid melody, and its freaking KAWAII!!! [good music too] anyway on another anime side note:

THE NEW SEASON OF SHAKUGAN NO SHANA IS COMMING! =D YAY! I'm soo excited for that! I bet ashley is too. anyway...hmm...what else is new in the anime world?

I'm not sure...but i will have to start watching Neon Genesis Evanglion: You Are Not Alone! I thought ...

nnuuuu....i started cutting again and its been like 7 months since i last cut! ;-; what makes a person like this? i also was told that it really does help lessen the stress on a person when the cut because it releases some enzyme or something...but nooeess....i dont wanna be a cutter any more...but i cant not cut! WAHHH!!!

[i must be going emo ;-; *sob*]

EDIT: [ppl are going to ask why]
Kay,
1. my parents adopted me, and then like a few months later ...